Alrighty then!

So, I put it out to the forum and I haven't had any answers yet, but on my own I seem to have broken through whatever was blocking me from doing my self-healing. It seemed to me like I had to shift my consciousness out of the pain-awareness and into my higher self awareness, my observer self, and then the energy started to flow. It was very good to feel the pain easing. Yay!!!

The dilemma of self-healing

When I am not consciously trying to heal myself, things just heal. In the course of healing others, without deliberation on my part. My cataracts dissolved on their own. My leg got stronger. It just happens on its own. But when I am injured, as now I am injured, it seems no effort on my own behalf makes a difference. Other healers have said they believe we healers should be able to heal ourselves. Yet it doesn't seem I can do it.

My arm continues to hurt. It's so painful so continuously that it has begun to affect my mood. It's getting on my nerves. The pain reminds me of the sciatica I used to have years ago in my leg. It is really difficult to endure, and it seems like everything I do just aggravates it more.

So I can't help but wonder if there is something I am doing wrong. And why is it so easy for me to heal others, but so difficult to help myself?

I will put it to the forum and see what others say.

Healing Prayer for 10/22/09

To Nancy and Brandon in Colorado; to Dinh in New Caledonia; to Richard and Leonard, Karen and Crystal, Erin and Sara, Shaun and Jonathan, and Kate who all live in the neighborhood (you could all get hands-on treatment); to Eric in Singapore; Michael in Kansas: Kathleen in Massachusetts; and Caglar in Turkey; to Zephira in the City by the Bay; and Diane in California; to Cecil in Western Washington; and Lisa in Kentucky; to Maria in England; and to P.J. and Ninna in Connecticut; to little Chloe in Colorado;
and sweet Mai in England; to Patricia in Texas; and to David in New Zealand, please open your aura tonight, and let a small ray of energy in. It's just energy, like the universe is made of, the same energy you are made of, it is clear and simple and full of love. Take it into your field, let it fill up any empty places, open any blockages, ease any pain, soothe any fear, quiet your mind and warm your heart. May this brief ray of love coming in for your highest good, help to open you to your own higher self, which is your true self, and invite higher guidance into your life at this time, when you so need it. And may you heal more fully, more quickly and more joyously into your journey, and know you are never alone. I am sending you white light.

Pain and Spirituality

Pain can really drag you down. Chronic pain in particular. It saps your energy and tricks your mind into negative thinking. I always used to think that people who are in pain and still smiling must be brain-dead. There just has to be something wrong with somebody who can be cheerful when they are in pain. You know what I mean? if you've ever been in serious pain for any period of time, you probably do. So how do they really do it? I think one major thing is not feeling sorry for yourself.

And then of course, pain makes you angry. It's frustrating and it wears on you emotionally. It does on me, anyway. When your mind starts yammering on about why is this happening to me, or you're just plain depressed, you have to have some presence of spirit. You have to notice, first of all.

It definitely helps if you have an established spiritual practice. By this I mean you have somewhere else to go, other than your mind and your emotions, both of which will likely become part of the problem, not part of the solution. You have to develop a way of watching what is happening, rather than being blown away by it. A little distance goes a long way toward poise.

When sadness arises, watch it roll in like you're watching waves at the ocean. Just let it wash over you. And if there are tears, let them come. And then they will go. Watch them go. Relax into it. Listen to your mind like you're listening to a friend. Don't judge, just listen. And always have compassion for yourself. The more you love yourself the less you will hurt.

Pain is a circumstance. It is just there to be dealt with. Remember we didn't incarnate into this world to have it all easy and sweet. We are here to be challenged.